Kicking Writer’s Doubt in the Ass

I’ve been a writer for as long as I can remember. 

When I was a child, my parents bought me a typewriter with those tall keys you have to really press down on to make the letter print on the paper. Later, they bought me an electronic one where you could even install a tippex ink ribbon to undo mistakes. 

I’d sit on the floor for hours writing horror stories and trying to emulate my favourite author at the time: RL.Stine. 

The trouble was, I never finished those stories. No matter how much my cousin loved reading them and begged me for the next part, no matter how many commendations I won at school for my story writing, I felt like a fraud. 

That feeling only worsened as I reached adulthood and wrote endless fanfictions which I never published. 

I started a book which I never finished too. One which I had high hopes for at the time which I felt could help others. 

The trouble was, that voice in the back of my head saying ‘Who do you think you are calling yourself a writer? Who would want to listen to the likes of you?’

And I listened. 

And I continued to write only to myself, saving my work but never showing a soul. 

The day I created this blog was the day I decided to give that voice a serious ass kicking. 

Who did it think it was to try to stifle my voice and stop me from sharing my beliefs? Who did it think it was to make me deny even one person who might get some value out of what I had to say?

Because when you don’t share your voice, that’s what happens. Someone misses out. 

Someone who really could have done with reading the words in the way that only you could write them. 

Not only that, but you starve your soul of the very thing that nourishes it. 

If you are a writer, no matter how ‘bad’ you think your writing is, you’ll feel it deep down. 

You need to write to feel better, you get grouchy when you don’t. You need to post. You’re itching to share your thoughts in long form. When you write, you feel a satisfaction you can’t explain and that nobody else seems to understand. 

If any of that sounds like you, what’re you doing continuing to read this? Get out there and write! Someone needs your words. The way that only you can craft them. 

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